Congrats to any and all gay or lesbians that may read this post. DOMA is Dead.
Now onto my feelings on this and many other things of this nature. DOMA does not directly impact the transgender community. People think about it now GAYS AND LESBIANS GET MARRIED. No where in that statement does it say that the Trans* community has to stop fighting so hard to be who they want to be and it pisses me off. This is why people say GLB community now because they believe that the T is silent, well I got news for you IT IS NOT SILENT AND WILL NOT BE SILENCED. As a transgender male who has zero money to change their name/gender marker, or start hormone replacement therapy and cannot get top surgery. I cannot see myself standing in front of a gay flag anymore any straight cis man can. I DONT WANT PEOPLE TO JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS OH THAT IS A LESBIAN, NO I AM A STRAIGHT TRANS MALE AND I STILL HAVE TO FIGHT TO BE SEEN THAT WAY, WHILE ALL CIS GENDER PEOPLE CAN LIVE THEIR LIVES AND NOT HATE THEIR BODY THE WAY I DO EACH AND EVERYDAY.
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Trans Wear Part 1......Point 5 cc T-shirt company.
I know there are a few people who have t-shirts out there for sale, to raise money for surgeries needed but I want to start with Aydian and Jenilee Dowding's Company Point 5 cc t-shirts.
These 2 people are amazing in what they do, they hand make the shirts, and they are now even traveling to pride events, and the Philly Trans Health Conference (which is this weekend June 13-15). I purchase 2 shirts from their throwback collections which are 50% off. They also offer for people who cannot afford a binder a way to get one with no charge because people have donated ones that were either too small or large for them, or no longer needed since surgery. Once a year they take I believe 75 % if not more to one person a who enters to win the money towards their top surgery. I believe this is amazing that people who take time out of their day to do things to make another's life better is rare and should be acknowledged. I have watched everyone of Aydian's YouTube video's under ALionsFear. I personally donated I believe two binders that were way to small for me and will continue to support an amazing company.
The website is: http://www.point5cctshirtcompany.webs.com
A list of the things on there for sale are:
shirts: at least 20 different shirts.
and now boxers.
I do not know if they will be bringing back the hats or sweatshirts because they currently say sold out but if they do I plan on purchasing those quickly.
-Jaxon-
These 2 people are amazing in what they do, they hand make the shirts, and they are now even traveling to pride events, and the Philly Trans Health Conference (which is this weekend June 13-15). I purchase 2 shirts from their throwback collections which are 50% off. They also offer for people who cannot afford a binder a way to get one with no charge because people have donated ones that were either too small or large for them, or no longer needed since surgery. Once a year they take I believe 75 % if not more to one person a who enters to win the money towards their top surgery. I believe this is amazing that people who take time out of their day to do things to make another's life better is rare and should be acknowledged. I have watched everyone of Aydian's YouTube video's under ALionsFear. I personally donated I believe two binders that were way to small for me and will continue to support an amazing company.
The website is: http://www.point5cctshirtcompany.webs.com
A list of the things on there for sale are:
shirts: at least 20 different shirts.
and now boxers.
I do not know if they will be bringing back the hats or sweatshirts because they currently say sold out but if they do I plan on purchasing those quickly.
-Jaxon-
Friday, June 7, 2013
coming out... and being outed.
Coming out is hard once, some of us who are trans have to come out twice. Not saying that everyone who is trans* has come out as gay or lesbian before coming out as Trans*, but the handful on people that I know in person and the other handful of people that I watch on YouTube all seem to say that they had to have a second coming out. When I was 18 I told my step-mother that I was a "lesbian" she than turned and outed me to my entire family before I even walked 5 blocks to my grandmothers house, where I lived ( by the way this was on Mothers Day too). My family said this was a private matter and I should keep it a secret. Now that's where they and I differ. I was at every pride event I could find my way to, I was proud to be out, I thought I had finally figured out why I felt the way I did. After speaking with my friend Chance on multiple occasions about him being trans* I had questioned myself if I was trans*.... After doing years of research in January 2011 I came out to my family and friends that I was trans* and that I would not be answering to she anymore. When my now ex-girlfriend Ashley helped me pick my name I had two names in mind, Jackson Thomas Eclipse or Michael Thomas Eclipse. Thomas had to be in my name because of not only my cousin whom I looked up to but TOMMY the GREEN RANGER/ WHITE RANGER, and Eclipse because I live the Twilight films and when there is a solar eclipse it is just fascinating. When my ex chose Jaxx spelled differently from how I originally wanted to spell it I thought it was a great idea. Soon after I found out she was dating my roommate behind my back and things went south. I met my wife Beth through Chance and she knew about trans* things and was very accepting of me. After I moved to Kentucky, I got into a fight with my ex and she yelled about choosing my name so Beth and I tried to change my name to Evan but it just would not stick to me. Jaxx was the name that stuck because it was a good suit for me. I changed it up so that Jaxx would be short for Jaxon. When I first started YouTube I had made a video where I read a letter that I had wrote about coming out ( the video had to be deleted because of transphobic harassment on youtube). The letter was this :
"To Whom it May Concern:
I first want to thank you all for being here for me through the good, the bad, the funny and the sad. Secondly I want to let you know I love you all dearly from the bottom of my heart. I know many if not all have found that I am changing my name from Patricia Beatrice Guyon to Jaxx Thomas Eclipse. What does this mean you may ask. The most this means is that I am beginning to transition myself from female to male. I've always felt like I was in the wrong body, I wasn't going through a tom boy stage. I resisted coming out as transgender since I was about 15-16 years old when I first heard the word. I have already begun a natural supplement to start the transitioning process with. I've done a ton of research and have joined a group that is supporting me emotionally. The group can be found on FaceBook under GENDERFUKBOIZ (which has closed down since). My close friend and Trans Male mentor Chance is the founder of the website. I am not doing this to hurt anyone, just trying to make myself feel more complete. Nothing is really changing inside I've always felt like a man, its just the outside changing. My voice will start to become deeper soon. I am not expecting everyone to just up and immediately call em jaxx or him but i would appreciate at least trying. I know many are either in shock or may be emotionally hurt by my decision but please realize I can no longer live in the mold I was born with. Dad don't think of this as a way to hurt you or make you mad. Think of it as you are getting the son you always wanted. As for the children in the family, I do not plan on telling you what to tell your children or if you'll even let me near them after this but according to PFLAG children don't usually need any type of mental help to make them understand and except transitioning. Some of the older children may need to be reassured its not contagious and hardly ever inherited. Some parents tell their childrem its like a Halloween costume that you can never take off. "
After my step-mother outed me to my whole family I had problems with each of them about my choice to come out and not let my feelings stay hidden. In 2011 I worked for Walmart I was outed by a coworker who found out because she walked into the HR Office when I was talking about which bathroom to use. The HR manager told me that if I was caught using the males rest room I would be fired and fined. I was threatened by customers for using the Female restrooms. I was also threatened by a coworker that he was going to kill me because the workers wanted to start with me and I reported her, and that I was a freak because "i could never be a 'real' man like him".
This is my story. If you would like to share yours feel free to leave it in a comment below.
--Jaxon--
"To Whom it May Concern:
I first want to thank you all for being here for me through the good, the bad, the funny and the sad. Secondly I want to let you know I love you all dearly from the bottom of my heart. I know many if not all have found that I am changing my name from Patricia Beatrice Guyon to Jaxx Thomas Eclipse. What does this mean you may ask. The most this means is that I am beginning to transition myself from female to male. I've always felt like I was in the wrong body, I wasn't going through a tom boy stage. I resisted coming out as transgender since I was about 15-16 years old when I first heard the word. I have already begun a natural supplement to start the transitioning process with. I've done a ton of research and have joined a group that is supporting me emotionally. The group can be found on FaceBook under GENDERFUKBOIZ (which has closed down since). My close friend and Trans Male mentor Chance is the founder of the website. I am not doing this to hurt anyone, just trying to make myself feel more complete. Nothing is really changing inside I've always felt like a man, its just the outside changing. My voice will start to become deeper soon. I am not expecting everyone to just up and immediately call em jaxx or him but i would appreciate at least trying. I know many are either in shock or may be emotionally hurt by my decision but please realize I can no longer live in the mold I was born with. Dad don't think of this as a way to hurt you or make you mad. Think of it as you are getting the son you always wanted. As for the children in the family, I do not plan on telling you what to tell your children or if you'll even let me near them after this but according to PFLAG children don't usually need any type of mental help to make them understand and except transitioning. Some of the older children may need to be reassured its not contagious and hardly ever inherited. Some parents tell their childrem its like a Halloween costume that you can never take off. "
After my step-mother outed me to my whole family I had problems with each of them about my choice to come out and not let my feelings stay hidden. In 2011 I worked for Walmart I was outed by a coworker who found out because she walked into the HR Office when I was talking about which bathroom to use. The HR manager told me that if I was caught using the males rest room I would be fired and fined. I was threatened by customers for using the Female restrooms. I was also threatened by a coworker that he was going to kill me because the workers wanted to start with me and I reported her, and that I was a freak because "i could never be a 'real' man like him".
This is my story. If you would like to share yours feel free to leave it in a comment below.
--Jaxon--
STAND TO PEE (STP) and PACKERS US GUYS BEST FRIENDS
How hard is it to have to use the bathroom in public when you have no STP, or going out somewhere in nice fitting jeans and a woman(or man) looking at your crotch for a bulge and you don't have one because your not packing. I know how hard both of these are because I do not pack and I do not use STPs very often because I have problems with shaking, from seizures. I have done some research and come up with a list of packers and STP that are out there on the market. This is only a small selection of them that I have found reviews on.
STPs
STP Fitz
Fenis
Number 1
PeeCock
Pissin' Passin' Packer
Mango-- Reviews I have seen have been that customers have not received products that they have paid for, and have not gotten money returned.
Medicine Spoon
Go Girl
Urinall
The Travel Mate
P Style
Mr. Fenis
The Whiz
Freshette
Lady J
Urinelle
Whizzy
Magic Cone
Soft Packers that I found are
Mr. Limpy
Mr. Right
Masho
Sailor Soft Pack
Private Packer
Bella Soft Packer
Mr. Softie
The Pack and Play packers I have found are
Lola Jake
Reel Magic
Like Real
FTM Prosthetic
Emisil Prosthetic
T2 Prosthetic
The Ultimat Prosthetic
Shilo
Tantus pack and play VIP
Super SOft
Silky
Bendy
Porter
Danny
If you know of any others please feel free to leave them in a comment below.
--jaxon
STPs
STP Fitz
Fenis
Number 1
PeeCock
Pissin' Passin' Packer
Mango-- Reviews I have seen have been that customers have not received products that they have paid for, and have not gotten money returned.
Medicine Spoon
Go Girl
Urinall
The Travel Mate
P Style
Mr. Fenis
The Whiz
Freshette
Lady J
Urinelle
Whizzy
Magic Cone
Soft Packers that I found are
Mr. Limpy
Mr. Right
Masho
Sailor Soft Pack
Private Packer
Bella Soft Packer
Mr. Softie
The Pack and Play packers I have found are
Lola Jake
Reel Magic
Like Real
FTM Prosthetic
Emisil Prosthetic
T2 Prosthetic
The Ultimat Prosthetic
Shilo
Tantus pack and play VIP
Super SOft
Silky
Bendy
Porter
Danny
If you know of any others please feel free to leave them in a comment below.
--jaxon
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
New Segment Of the FTM BLOG.
I want to try out a new idea, If you guys need advice on something, You can either comment in any of the blogs or you can email me at artatitsbest2013@gmail.com, or on facebook under either of the names I will be posting links to on here.
Also, If any MTF's would like to come and help by writing about things they go through email me and we can talk about how to do this. I am trying to find any ways to reach out to any and help the trans* community.
Jaxon
https://www.facebook.com/killerftm - main facebook page
https://www.facebook.com/jaxon.eclipse - page that I am selling my art work at, for help raising money for my transition.
Also, If any MTF's would like to come and help by writing about things they go through email me and we can talk about how to do this. I am trying to find any ways to reach out to any and help the trans* community.
Jaxon
https://www.facebook.com/killerftm - main facebook page
https://www.facebook.com/jaxon.eclipse - page that I am selling my art work at, for help raising money for my transition.
Sunday, June 2, 2013
READ AWAY, TRANS* BOOKS. SO MUCH INFORMATION SO LITTLE TIME.
So many books for transgender, whether it be F.T.M or M.T.F..
I took some time and did some research, I found out there are more books out there than any of us probably realize for our situation. I personally have nine books so far and plan on buying many more. I am going to give a long list at the end of this short entry of books I found just on one website, and that website is http://www.giovannisroom.com/transgender . This store is located in the heart of the gayborhood in Philadelphia, PA. If you are ever down that way you should check it out, they have more than just books, they have everything you can think of pretty much. Their address is 345 south 12th street Philadelphia Pa 19107. I did a small vlog on the books that I do have and thought it would be good to share it here, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ln47egZr-jc
So here is the list of books I have first.
My gender workbook by Kate Bornstein
Trans Liberation: Beyond pink or blue by Leslie Feinberg
Nina here nor there: My journey beyond Gender by Nick Krieger
Trans Gender Warriors:Making history from Joan of Arc to Dennis Rodman by Leslie Feinberg
Get That Freak: Homophobia and Transphobia in High Schools. by Rebecca Haskell and Brian Burtch
Parrotfish by Ellen Wittlinger
Stone Butch Blues by Leslie Feinberg
Crybaby Butch by Judith Frank
Transition: The Story of How I Became a Man by Chaz Bono
Books that I am planning on purchasing in the near future are....
Gender Outlaw by Kate Bornstein
The Testosterone files by Max Wolf Valerio
Gender Outlaws:The Next Generation by Kate Bornstein
The Gender Frontier by Mariette Pathy Allen
Becoming a Visible Man by Jamison Green
The Phallus Palace: FTM Transsexuals by Dean Kotula
Transmen and FTMs by Jason Cromwell
Letters For My Brothers by Megan Rohrer and Zander Keig
Hung Jury: Testimonies of Genital Surgery by Transsexual Men by Trystan Theosophus Cotten
Just add Hormones by Matt Kailey
The Bearded Gentleman by Allan Peterkin and Nick Burns
Strength Training Anatomy by Frederic Delavier
Transgender History by Susan Stryker
How Sex Changed by Joanne J Meyerowitz
From Female to Male:The Life of Jack Bee Garland by Lou Sullivan
My New Gender Workbook: A Step by Step Guide to Achieving World Peace Through Gender Anarchy and Sex Positivitey by Kate Bornstein
Stuck In The Middle With You: A Memoir of Parenting in Three Genders by Jennifer Finney and Anna Quindlen
Becoming Alec by Darwin Ward
Second Son: Transitioning Toward my Destiny, Love and Life by Ryan Sallans
Transgender 101: A simple guide to a complex issue by Nicholas M. Teich, and Jamison Green
Transition:Becoming Who I was always meant to be by Chaz Bono
Trans/Love: Radical sex, love and relationships beyond the gender binary by Morty Diamond, Julia Serano, Shawna Virago, Sassfras Lowrey and Silas Howard.
Gender Born, Gender Made: Raising Healthy Gender-Nonconforming Children by diane Ehrensaft and Edgardo Menvielle
Labor Of Love: The Story of One Man's extraordinary pregnancy by Thomas Beatie
Lucky Michaels: Shelter by Lucky michaels
Drag King Dreams by Leslie Feinberg]
Luna by Julie Anne Peters
Transgender Rights by Paisley Currah, Richard M Juang, and Shannon Price Minter
As Nature Made Him: The Boy Who Was Raised As A Girl by John Colapinto
All She Wanted By Aphrodite Jones
FTM: Female To Male Transexuals in Society by Holly Devor, and Jamison Green
I could only find books on this subject released dating back to 2004. For only being nine years there is plenty of books and more than what I listed all you have to do is check out the website I posted above along with amazon and ebay and you will find a ton.
If you know of any good ones I have not listed please comment them below
-Jaxon-
I took some time and did some research, I found out there are more books out there than any of us probably realize for our situation. I personally have nine books so far and plan on buying many more. I am going to give a long list at the end of this short entry of books I found just on one website, and that website is http://www.giovannisroom.com/transgender . This store is located in the heart of the gayborhood in Philadelphia, PA. If you are ever down that way you should check it out, they have more than just books, they have everything you can think of pretty much. Their address is 345 south 12th street Philadelphia Pa 19107. I did a small vlog on the books that I do have and thought it would be good to share it here, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ln47egZr-jc
So here is the list of books I have first.
My gender workbook by Kate Bornstein
Trans Liberation: Beyond pink or blue by Leslie Feinberg
Nina here nor there: My journey beyond Gender by Nick Krieger
Trans Gender Warriors:Making history from Joan of Arc to Dennis Rodman by Leslie Feinberg
Get That Freak: Homophobia and Transphobia in High Schools. by Rebecca Haskell and Brian Burtch
Parrotfish by Ellen Wittlinger
Stone Butch Blues by Leslie Feinberg
Crybaby Butch by Judith Frank
Transition: The Story of How I Became a Man by Chaz Bono
Books that I am planning on purchasing in the near future are....
Gender Outlaw by Kate Bornstein
The Testosterone files by Max Wolf Valerio
Gender Outlaws:The Next Generation by Kate Bornstein
The Gender Frontier by Mariette Pathy Allen
Becoming a Visible Man by Jamison Green
The Phallus Palace: FTM Transsexuals by Dean Kotula
Transmen and FTMs by Jason Cromwell
Letters For My Brothers by Megan Rohrer and Zander Keig
Hung Jury: Testimonies of Genital Surgery by Transsexual Men by Trystan Theosophus Cotten
Just add Hormones by Matt Kailey
The Bearded Gentleman by Allan Peterkin and Nick Burns
Strength Training Anatomy by Frederic Delavier
Transgender History by Susan Stryker
How Sex Changed by Joanne J Meyerowitz
From Female to Male:The Life of Jack Bee Garland by Lou Sullivan
My New Gender Workbook: A Step by Step Guide to Achieving World Peace Through Gender Anarchy and Sex Positivitey by Kate Bornstein
Stuck In The Middle With You: A Memoir of Parenting in Three Genders by Jennifer Finney and Anna Quindlen
Becoming Alec by Darwin Ward
Second Son: Transitioning Toward my Destiny, Love and Life by Ryan Sallans
Transgender 101: A simple guide to a complex issue by Nicholas M. Teich, and Jamison Green
Transition:Becoming Who I was always meant to be by Chaz Bono
Trans/Love: Radical sex, love and relationships beyond the gender binary by Morty Diamond, Julia Serano, Shawna Virago, Sassfras Lowrey and Silas Howard.
Gender Born, Gender Made: Raising Healthy Gender-Nonconforming Children by diane Ehrensaft and Edgardo Menvielle
Labor Of Love: The Story of One Man's extraordinary pregnancy by Thomas Beatie
Lucky Michaels: Shelter by Lucky michaels
Drag King Dreams by Leslie Feinberg]
Luna by Julie Anne Peters
Transgender Rights by Paisley Currah, Richard M Juang, and Shannon Price Minter
As Nature Made Him: The Boy Who Was Raised As A Girl by John Colapinto
All She Wanted By Aphrodite Jones
FTM: Female To Male Transexuals in Society by Holly Devor, and Jamison Green
I could only find books on this subject released dating back to 2004. For only being nine years there is plenty of books and more than what I listed all you have to do is check out the website I posted above along with amazon and ebay and you will find a ton.
If you know of any good ones I have not listed please comment them below
-Jaxon-
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